lyn turner.

without doubt, nothing i ever say, in my small small mind which wonders all over this largely scaled world, will ever come close to expressing how i feel about you.

you weren't just family, you were blood, you were life, you were my everything, my idol, my hero, and my only best friend.

no one in this huge world, will ever replace, or come close in any way, to showing love the way you did.
the day you passed away, was the day i lost all hope and lost my mind, my heart, and my best friend.

i adore you, with every ounce of blood in my body, and every thing you have ever done, will never be forgotten.

i'm angry at the world, i'm fucking negative, god, i'm one of the worst people you will ever meet or know, yet you, somehow loved me, shared life with me, and showed me what is right from wrong.

the day cancer took you away, was the last day i called you nan, and it was the last time i held your hand, and the last time i kissed your wrinkly forehead.

it was the last time i put my hands through your, as you called it, "shitty old hair".

it was the last time i lent over your ageing body, kissed you softly on the cheek, and walked out, crying, not wiping a single tear away, and said, "see ya nan".

i miss you, i'm lost with out you, and i'm fucking scared.

just tell me you love me, tell me i'm doing something stupid, and than tell me "i told ya so".

but never, please god never ever leave me again, i wouldn't be able to handle it.

i love you, i adore you.

see ya nan.